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I Am Michael – message on 11-11-11

On 11 November 2011 a small group of us gathered to make the most of the vibrational energies of the 11:11 doorway that was opened here on Earth.

Our gathering was one of silent meditation and contemplation.  After only a short while, Michael, the archangel announced his presence.  The energy was tangible and visible to the inner eye.  A deep sense of peace filled the room and all those present.   His words flowed through my physical body for 30 minutes.  No-one was prepared for this so no recording was made and as I was the channel I can only repeat the essence of his message.

“I Am Michael.  I am with you.  I always walk with you, despite appearances and despite the most stressful circumstances.  I Am the essence of your Being, which is Love.  You are living in a time of great change and at times, great destruction and chaos.  Many are challenged to open their minds and their hearts and to perceive with new eyes.  These challenges also bring up great fear and resistance.  A new wave has been created and at this time, it has not reached its highest peak.  But it soon will and you will face many storms.  Through all these changes, remember I walk with you.


I am closer than your own breath.  I am as close as your own heart.  Whenever your mind turns to fear and believes in separation, you can call on me and on your own Warrior of Light.  I serve Her, the Great Mother, the Divine Ma, Maryam, Mary and am here to assist all her children, regardless of culture, tradition, religion or creed.


Great changes are coming.  Both on the inner planes and in the physical world.  Bridges will be washed away and many towers and structures will disappear.  Know at all times that you are safe and protected.  Stay centred in the Ground of your Being and surround yourself with the wings of prayer.


I Am Micha-el, I Am Mikal, the Tower of Light.  

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Sacred Heart Diksha

  
The Sacred Heart Diksha has been received by a number of people, all of whom who have experienced deep feelings, healing and transformation.

The Sacred Heart Diksha opens the inner chamber of the heart and Love starts to flow. This Diksha has brought instant pain relief; wonderful clarity into disease and life-long pain; the untying of karmic knots and physical healing which has medically been declared a miracle and on-going spiritual transformation, growth and awakening!

A diksha can also be called an initiation or a blessing. It initiates the receiver into an aspect of spiritual energy. We are not dependant on others or even gurus or teachers to receive these blessings. We are always living within the Love and Heart of God and we can receive at any times. Often, in times of deep distress, the mind relaxes its grip on our awareness and the awareness of the blessings that are available to us, just flows in. At these times we are flooded with a deep sense of abiding peace and an infinite compassion for ourselves and the world.
Receiving a diksha from someone who ‘carries’ this energy, helps us over the bridge; it removes the stone from the entrance to the cave and the spiritual energy has the power to clear the cobwebs of our minds.

Such a diksha is the Sacred Heart diksha. It blesses the receiver with a deep sense of calm and ‘all is well with the world’. Life here in physical matter is a great mystery to us and it is one of greatest challenges of those who live with a spiritual attitude, to surrender the need to know and to understand. Whenever things change and you enter the unfamiliar, the mind becomes fearful and it wants you to fight or flight. It tries to integrate and digest what is happening. It tries to label whatever is going on. This labelling, however, creates great suffering as it binds you into a belief system with all its positives and negatives and all its shoulds and should-nots.

The Sacred Heart is a term for the Sacred Ground of your Being. It can be accessed through contemplation, meditation and breathing exercises (pranayama) and samayama. The Sacred Heart can be regarded as the Womb of the Divine Mother or the Sacred Embrace : the place where you find yourself supported and carried unconditionally.

When you surrender into the Sacred Heart, all is taken care of; your nervous system can relax, your adrenals will slow down and the fear will leave your mind. Obviously this takes practise and the building of faith. But once you have experienced this, the memory of Its infinite compassion will never leave you and it is easier to find your way back there.
Mother Mary has given the Sacred Heart Meditation which anyone can use at any time.

FEEDBACK FROM ONE RECIPIENT

October 18, 2010

For twenty years I have had a severe pain, like a massive bruise,over my heart – right over the aorta. This was originally thought to be ‘costochronditis’ and then was simply accepted to be part of fibromyalgic pain. The pain has been there, day and night, every single day.
About six weeks ago, in response to something that Hetienne Ma Grobler had posted on Facebook, I commented “I have had severe pain over my heart for 20 years. Any ideas?” Ma responded to me and offered her help in a most gracious and loving manner.

I did not hesitate for one moment to be open to this. I absolutely believe that the right person comes into our life at the right moment – even from as far away as another continent.
Ma asked me for some details of my life which I shared with her. That I grew up in an abusive home and from a young age, learned to curl into myself to protect myself from severe beatings. She offered that she would send healing energy my way from across the ocean. I was receptive to this and open to receive healing.

 The result? For the first time in twenty years, there is NO Pain in that area of my body. Well, actually at times I do experience pain there and this is what I do. I acknowledge to myself that my heart is hurting, I name the specific reason for the hurt and I state what I am doing to deal with the situation and affirm that I am taking good care of my heart. And the pain goes away immediately.

May my ‘story’ inspire your own openness to healing.

Blessings to all of you!

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Mary’s Blessing Seeds

Our spiritual Mother, Mary, asks all of us to pray to Her regardless of our religion or culture.  She has said to many visionaries that all people are her children – her spiritual children.  Our bodies are temporary, but our spirits live forever, that is why Mother Mary is our true Divine Mother, the Mother of our Souls.  Her love for all of us is truly that of a mother who would want nothing more than to help her children.
I created these blessing seeds from ceramic clay that will deteriorate and dissolve back into Mother Earth when buried.   Each of these seeds are imprinted with the divine image of Divine Mary and thus contains Her sacred energy.
You can say a prayer whilst holding the seed in your hand, and then make a hole in the ground with your finger and plant these seeds wherever you want healing to take place.  This way you can call on Mother Mary as you walk on her earth;  you can place these at sacred places;  in your garden or at places of sadness and trauma.

Mary’s Blessings Seeds are packaged with dried lavender seeds brought back from Lourdes in France, in a small voile pouch.  
Mary’s Blessing Seeds are available to purchase on http://http://www.etsy.com/listing/86536820/prayers-and-blessings-mother-mary

Pray to Divine Mary, She is as close as your heart
Ave Maria

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Fullness of the Heart by Divine Mary



a message from Mother Mary, Gatekeeper of the Sacred Heart and the Feminine Christ Energies.


From the fullness of the Heart you move into the full expression of Self into the world. Fullness of the Heart can be directly experienced through immense happiness, joy, ecstasy and indeed witnessed in Grace in everyday living. Fullness of the Heart is the doorway into the embrace of the Feminine Christ and indeed into radiant ecstatic living.
So it is obvious that if there is a perception or belief that the spiritual heart and the personal heart is empty, you will not be able to express or manifest outside of yourself; you will not be able to access your sacred desires and passions. All of these are your doorways into the ecstasy of God. Most of you have been conditioned and taught to run on half-empty – this becomes such a habit that you do not even realize that you are operating from a place of force rather than power. In the world of duality, such a feeling of scarcity and emptiness will then lead to greed and the belief in taking more than what you need and taking at the expense of others (and yourself) – it gives life to archetypes in your psyche which will devour you and your existence.
As this belief system is not in the Grace of Light and it does not exist on the level of your True Self, this becomes a split off from the Self and you develop a separate personality aspect that has the power to lead a separate existence – even unknown to your ego self! This self then grows and lives in the shadow of your True Self and in your unconscious darkness. The aspects of the personality act in stealth and they live ‘under the radar’ so to speak. They go quietly about their business, doing their best not to alert you to their subterfuge and existence. These aspects are often the saboteurs in your life and they are the ones that keep you stuck where you are and going round and round in circles. And indeed, this is part of their function.
They are designed by the mind as gatekeepers – guardians of the inner garden – they are there to keep you out of your sacred garden and to keep you ignorant of the potential that lies within. Should you wake up to their existence and you change your ways, they will have to die. The more invested and identified you are with their existence, the stronger their hold and control over you become. Symbolically they can be seen as usurpers of the kingdom and the false king/queen on the throne – they become your false masters. They rule without mercy and the inner garden becomes a wasteland under their rule. You become a stagnated being, subject to rules that you do not even understand and you go through life in a ‘trance’, hypnotized by their chants and mantras.
But the wonderful news is that if you are looking for answers and a new way of being with and in yourself, then the power of the trance has been wearing off. At a level, you are becoming rebellious or desperate enough to consider breaking out of the jail and overthrowing the government of the mind. You do not need to uncover and identify each and every aspect of the personality! You do not have to de-construct the construction that you created! You do, however, have to have the intent, dedication and commitment to ALLOW the deconstruction and most of all, you have to have faith and absolute trust in the Love and Grace of Soul.
When one first wakes up to the darkness within and all its shadows, the temptation to accredit this creation to the Ego and subsequently give it power, is very strong, But this is just another ploy by mind to take the credit and the glory in a skewed manner and thus to own your power again. This is where it is so important NOT to become identified with the mind and the body. You are neither. You are the True Self. Mind and body is the product of the world, created as a playground, or a school (whichever you choose to believe in). You did not create your mind. Neither did you create your body. You did not control your childhood and all its conditioning experiences, and so on. The Creator did and through awareness, surrender and acceptance you can allow the Creator (Your True Self/Soul/Christ) to dissolve the veil.
The fullness of the heart is your key into the other world. The fullness of the heart is the door into freedom, grace and bliss!! When the heart is full, the senses are satisfied and there is no subconscious belief in scarcity and lack of love. Love translates into the physical world as everything, i.e. objects, needs, desires, security, joy, happiness, clarity, creativity and it translates as the most basic fundamental material existence of needing an income, needing employment, a house, being able to provide for your family, being treated with love and respect and everything else that you need to exist in a happy life. Therefore love is not only a feeling or even an action, nor is love limited to personal relationships : ultimately love is yourself. Love is all that there is.
Love is the very fabric that you are made of and Love is the nature of God.
Thus, it is obvious, that where your mind creates its own sub-beliefs that exclude the presence of Love (which it by its very nature it will do), it will separate you from your wholeness and it will cast shadows in your life. It is also true that Love does exist everywhere at all times, even in the shadows, but this is only obvious and known to you when you have let go sufficiently of your mind-body identification and you are detached from the importance of the self.
When I use the word ‘heart’, I refer to the High Heart or the Spiritual Heart. Your ultimate desire and longing is for conscious realisation of union with God. When this desire is fulfilled, all needs are met.
When the divine Fire splits into Light and Flame, you have the duality of Will and Desire – thus the play between the archetypes and their shadows. These create the divine play of polarity and duality for you – they provide the tension so that you can create and the secret is not to become identified with either the ‘good’ or the ‘bad’ archetypes. It is to witness this play in yourself with love, ie with acceptance. Acceptance that this is the way it is meant to be; that it serves a purpose in your life and just because you do not know or understand yet, it does not mean that it should not be this way. Intellectually, there are many explanations and belief systems and traditions. These are all attempts by the human mind to either understand or to put into words the direct knowing which is being experienced beyond the veil. Have your own direct experiences and know for yourself. Bhakty, the act of devotion by the surrendered self, will grant you these direct experiences.
Although all of this sounds very mystical, the spiritual life is a practical, grounded way of living. It is a softening of your boundaries, a dissolving of identity and a letting go of your attachment to how you think things (including yourself and your reactions and your behaviour) should be and should not be. It is actually a much easier and much simpler way of living, than the way of the mind!
The five steps of the path of love will take you to the door of the Heart and its servant of bhakty .
Firstly, let go of your defences and allow yourself to become vulnerable. When you practise allowance this activates Love into Action! Through your willingness to hand over control of your life, you are putting your Soul into the driver’s seat of your journey and this is true surrender. Surrender to the principle of Love. In order to surrender, you have to access your own willingness to trust and to develop faith. Faith is a skill – it has to be developed through the consistent effort of surrender. As you can see the entire process calls for commitment and the willingness to persevere, despite appearances.

Through continual surrendering to a greater power, letting go of trying to control your identity and your experience, you will expand into a greater sense of self. Layers of conditioning and habitual action and patterning can just fall away. Your consciousness changes without you having ‘done’ anything and miracles start to happen. And, finally, you live in acceptance, a subtle shift, a bridge into a state of fullness of heart.

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Archangel Michael, guardian and protector

Archangel Michael, protector, spiritual warrior, the Hero Within.

The mighty Michael has given The Blue Light of Clarity Diksha.  Diksha is the word used in Yoga, the philosophy of union of the East, and it means blessing.  A blessing of sacred energy to be shared and received by those who ask.

This particular diksha has the power to restore sanctity to the inner understanding and vision of the Self.  His Blue Light of Clarity will act as a powerful energetic sword to cut through the veils of self-delusion.  It will cut away all acts of Self-denial and Self-sacrifice which is made for the sake of an Ideal ((Idol) or idealised Self.

His blue sword of Light will set you free from the illusion of the ‘dream’ :  the dream that you need another to fulfill yourSelf.  This can be on a romantic level and on spiritual levels.  Once the dream is overcome, you will find it easier to live in the Peace of which Archangel Michael is the progenitor.

You may receive this diksha and use it with your own personal spiritual practise and path.

Archangel Michael explains that denial of Self closes down the heart.  Without realising it, your ego’s obsession to manifest the dream of its mind, pulls you away from your Sacred Heart and the Voice Within.  You become cocooned in the rut and negativity of the mind and a mind and body/soul split takes place.  Once the mind has separated itself from the body/soul, you fall into habitual coping patterns created through time.  These habitual patterns of thinking and acting and feeling are called samskaras in the Hindu philosophy.

Samskaras are not only energetic imprints, but can be traced as neural pathways in the brain and physical manifestation in the body!  Many lifetimes’ samskaras accumulate in the system and it is impossible to eradicate and transform all of these through bodywork or other therapies.  Most of your acts of Self-denial has been deeply buried in the subconscious and unconscious and it is virtually infinite.

There is one way of transformation and that is to discover yourself as the Self.  The Self is the Witness that is Stillness, free of desire and pain. Awakening of the Kundalini is the direct path of awakening to the Self.  The baptism by the Holy Spirit, also known as Shaktipat, stirs the energy of the Ground of your Being and slowly moves its way up through your energetic system.  Many experience the awakening of kundalini as an intense experiences with many physical changes and impact.  Kundalini is regarded as the divine feminine energy transforming you into a purified self in order to merge with the divine masculine of the Self – of-God but not-God.  Through this process you come to know yourself as truly being of-God and living within God and God living within you.

Saint Michael the Archangel, Powerful Spirit of Truth
Take my hand and lead me to Divine Truth.
Protect me from all the evil in the world.
Guard me and compensate for all my weaknesses.
Change, bless, and restore the consquences of all my mistakes.
Carry me on the wings of your love and might to the
Throne of God and pray to Him with me forever.
Amen.

“Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. 
In fact angels have no religion as we know it …
their existence precedes every religious system 
that has ever existed on earth.”
St. Thomas Aquinas

If you would like to read more about Archangel Michael and how he communicates to those who ask, please read my post on :  http://pathofdivinelove.blogspot.com/2011/03/archangel-michael-wayshower-and-animus.html  and have a look at Michael shrines here :  http://hergracedevata.blogspot.com/2011/10/archangel-michael.html
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Sacred Union

In the Book of Mary, the two becomes One. East meets West; masculine joins with feminine; duality recedes and unity is revealed. Boundaries between religions and philosophies disappear; boundaries between self and others dissolve and ultimately self is known as Self. 

Light/Jyothi is Grace. Grace is not limited to a belief system, tradition, religion or spiritual path. The Sun shines on everyone and everything with equal disregard for belief in separation.

The Christ is not limited to a belief system, tradition, religion or spiritual path. The Christ is the Divine Blueprint of Perfection and the Sacred Heart of Divinity. The Christ is an emanation of the Ray of Compassion.

Kundalini is known by many names : Grace, Light, Jothy, Holy Spirit, Shekinah, Sophia, Kali and Mary. She is the Shakty, goddess within that illuminates the path to sacred union.

She is the Divine Mother, the One who Initiates.  She is the birthing and containing mother who gives us safety and She is also the ego-devouring mother who transforms us. 
The Great Mother remains true to her essential, eternal and mysterious darkness, in which she is the center of the mystery of existence – Erich Neumann.
Mary nourishes and comforts us as does ‘the valiant woman’ in the Book of Provers.  We find this in Mary in the images of her in motherly poses.  The transformative power of Mary is in the suffering she models and guides us through, kneading our ego like the true bread that will then rise and be transformed.  Kali Ma has three complete sides to her qualities :  goodness, passion and darkness.  She is both motherly and sexual;  both transformative and sensual.

As the Flame descends through Grace, or holy baptism or shaktipat, it snakes through the body and it purifies the self.  Until the Self has mastered the fear of the self, the Flame may be experienced and perceived as an enemy of the self.  The self will defend against its own dissolution.  Therefore, it is necessary and required that the initiate undertakes a sadhana (spiritual practice) that will reveal the nature of the Self, both dark and light.  Self-knowledge is the key.
 

The Flame is the Grace and the Light.

Arut Perum Jothi
Arut Perum Jothi
Thani Perum Karunai
Vast Grace Light
Vast Grace Light
Infinite Divine Compassion –  Verses 1 and 2 from the Jothi Agaval by Swami Ramalinga, Siddha Saint.
Swami Ramalinga, the Siddha, who merged with Jothi, teaches that the Vast Grace Light is both Divine Father and Mother. The Jothi unfolds like a rose in the cup (skull) and fills the head with bliss.
‘Through self-knowledge you have come to understand that your greatest obstacles become your best allies. You will use all of that which you struggled with, as tools to carry the message of the Grace Light.’ Swami Ramalinga

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Alchemy of the Heart : Lapiz Message from Lady Mary

LAPIZ – THE BLUE TRANSITION BETWEEN NIGREDO AND ALBEDO

 The blue stage brings the first glimmer of light and the awaiting dawn into the blackness of the Nigredo of the Alchemical Journey of the Soul.

This morning, as I prepare to put down some insights and thoughts on the Lapiz stage, Divine Mary enters with a message for you, the reader.

Dearest one, listen to my words with your heart. Be still and hear. Close your eyes and stare deeply into the infinite silence. Receive the gentle energies of the Sacred Heart and let the Realisations drop like pebbles into the lake of acceptance and peace.

There is no ideal human being; there is no ideal way of being; there is no ideal way of experiencing your human-ness, your relationships and your and other’s actions and creations. By putting the illusion of an ideal onto yourself and onto the world around you, you are setting yourself up for failure, shame and guilt. The inner war that rages in the breast of the human, is the war between mind and heart. The mind has been trained to have certain expectations of how you should be, how a ‘normal’, ‘healthy’ and ‘happy’ childhood should have been, how your partner should act, how others should treat you. All of these have been written into a code of conduct, but every one’s code is different, it changes perpetually and any attempt at adhering to a code, instead of allowing Love to guide and lead you, leads to rigid and painful behaviour, manifesting in crippling and restrictive disease and circumstance.

 At times it may appear that you have found those whom subscribe to the same code of conduct as yourself, and that it is emotionally safe to side with them and to seek shelter with them against ‘others’ or against your own feelings of pain and suffering. And then, in the blink of an eye, betrayal takes place! And you feel disillusionment, betrayal and abandonment and the suffering sets in.

 This is because no such code exists. The only code that is Real, is Love and Love is Unconditional, without conditions, without expectations, without withholding, without distinction, without judgement, without division.

The ideal that exists in your mind, has been created through your conditioning and your personal experiences. This ideal can never be met and can never be fulfilled. Therein lies much suffering. This ideal is not meant to be met or fulfilled. The only ideal that is Real and that can be attained by you, is the ideal of Love. Therein lies salvation.

You are not personally responsible for the early conditioning of your life; you are not personally responsible for the actions of the caretakers in your early life; you are not personally responsible for the collective consciousness of the world that you were born into and neither for the Cosmic consciousness.

Absolve yourself. Forgive yourself. Accept that in Love the Mystery exists. Only in pure Awareness can the Mystery be restored. In existence only the Golden Peace can be born. From the Infinite Ocean of Peace, the Golden One, the Son who acts and creates in peace and Love, can be born.

 Today your personal responsibility lies in your choices, in your attitude and in your efforts to clear your own personal mirror from the ingrained patterns of belief and habit. Your personal responsibility lies in accepting the Higher Power in your life and dethroning the false self from your inner kingdom. You are responsible for the state of your inner kingdom and sacred garden; for watering the seeds of understanding and higher consciousness, lying dormant, waiting to sprout; for nurturing those new plants with loving thoughts, with forgiveness for yourself and others and by keeping your eyes on the Mark of Peace.

The Soul yearns for ecstasy. The ecstasy of the highest peace which can only be attained through the freedom of guilt and the burden of shame and judgement, of self, others and the world that is seemingly created. The painful and ‘broken’ world that you perceive, is born from your guilt and shame. The ‘failing’ world that you perceive, is born from your judgement. And this world, that is being created from moment to moment, hides the golden world of Peace and Love. It obscures your Vision. When your Vision is obscured, Wisdom does not exist. Wisdom is born from Vision – clear and pure Vision. As the mirror darkens, fear sets in and it seems that your belief in guilt and shame is True. It is a never ending circle. As you expect betrayal, you will experience betrayal and you will feel the pain of believing that you have been betrayed.

But your code of conduct and your set of rules and principles, belong to you and are created by you, by no-one else. Control is when you are trying to force others to become a part of your code of conduct and your created world with its own rules and morals and principle. In other words, your ideal. Your ideal is your own and you will find many ways in which to project this ideal onto the screen of life and onto those who will fit that ideal. But if you look carefully, you will see that no-one, divine or human, fits that set of ideals perfectly.

 Perfection means the stagnation of the Soul and the life of the Soul. The Soul is born from the Ocean of Love, a never-ending existence of cycles, change, turbulence, tranquillity, beauty, organic life, death and growth.

Love accepts. Love accepts that All serves in the divine plan. Love Knows that all that seems bad, is still good. Love Knows that this ‘illusion’ serves you, the Golden One. Love is humble. Love understands that the arrogance of the mind is born from the fear that the ideal truly does not exist. Love Knows that the divine ideal of peace and compassion, is present at all times – even when you cannot see it, because of your darkened mirror which is clouding your Vision.

Love Knows that you are whole, that you are holy. That despite what you judge as broken, bad, negative, hurtful and betraying, your unconscious actions are invisible to you. Love Knows that you are blindfolded for a reason and that, as you grow into Love and you become more and more authentic as Whom You Are, your blindfold is removed, piece by piece. Love Knows that whilst you are in the darkness, you are still as holy as when you move into the Light. There is nowhere where God is not. Separation does not exist, other than in your mind. Perfection and idealism and codes of conduct, strengthens the belief of separation in your mind. The natural response to this belief, is the belief that you are unholy, broken and sick. The next step is that you are in ‘need’ of healing and that there is a lack of Love. Only your mind needs healing. The mind that excludes Love.

 Earlier I said that the Soul yearns for ecstasy. Ecstasy is found in suffering. Ecstasy is found in pain. Ecstasy is found in pleasure. Ecstasy is found in joy. There are times when the Soul finds fulfillment for its yearning for ecstasy in pain and suffering. You cannot avoid this. The human experience is one of duality. You cannot Know pleasure without knowing pain. Your habitual attempts at defending against the experience of duality and against the experience of pain, becomes your armour. Your armour becomes your character. Your soma reflects your character and it sculpts around your armour, like clay in a potter’s hands. Allow the divine Potter to mould you. Accept this Love without judgement, without fear. When you listen to the wise stories available to you in myths and folk tale, you will see that this Wisdom is available to you, all around you. She speaks to you wherever you look, if you open your eyes and ears. Only Good comes from all. There is only one consciousness Present and that is the Consciousness of Divine Love.

 At times it would seem that no matter what, you are incapable of choosing loving and peaceful ways of acting. Then it is thus. Accept it and forgive yourself for not complying with your ideal state of being. Your True state and being is one of Absolute Love and Compassion. The web of that has been woven by the mind needs to be scrubbed away. This will take time. Set the intent. Ask for help, Divine or mortal. Stay in a state of acceptance and forgiveness. Hold the tension of the opposites. Live in the duality without resistance. And slowly but surely, the old energy will make way for the new. As the energy tracks in the auric field and brain changes, thus the neural pathways in the physical brain changes, the soma adjusts and remanifests and your self comes into alignment with your Golden Self. But this is only possible when you take back the projection of the idealised Self and allow the Self to manifest and to flow through you into this world and re-create a new world.

So, today step back from your own life. Hand it over to my Wise Ways and allow your child to come out and play in the Sun of Love and Adoration.

 Ave Maria.

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The Most Secret Experience

Of all experiences of the inner self, Kundalini is the most secret, the most protected. It is the most intimate, the most personal. One does not wish to speak of it because to do so is–as it were–to reveal sacred knowledge, to expose secrets divulged in private to oneself, the single listener. Kundalini brings us in direct confrontation with that which we are–our quintessential, fundamental self–that range of sensation and patterned feeling, the memory of which we long ago buried in the depths below consciousness, but which occasionally surfaced, briefly and in disguise, in moments of intense feeling.
But once reencountered, we know it (the tonos, the way of being) immediately as our very selves, the stranger we have yearned to meet, the god we have sought to know. It confirms the familiar assertion, so oftechallenged or denied–we and the god are one.
To describe the sensation of Kundalini is like delineating the course of sexual arousal. Can one adequately convey to another–in words–that which is experienced in the realm of pure sensation? I think not. It is personal, unique, part of the individual repertoire of response. By listening to my account of my experience, you may, possibly, relate it to something in your own sphere and judge it to be similar or not. But you can never know the true quality of my subjective response unless you become me, or, like a spirit, enter my system in order to taste with my mouth, sense with my nerves.
But Kundalini is far more than a sensation. It is at once an awakening, a recognition, and a call. The awakening is into awareness of that which before was merely reputed, but is now confirmed. The recognition is of an inner process and response at once new and familiar, whether from this life or another. The call is to deal with it, integrate it, and then carry its energy forward into a new enterprise. To ignore it is to turn one’s back on god.
How meagre is our vocabulary when we refer to pleasurable physical/mental experience. We can speak of what is joyous, blissful, rapturous, ecstatic, orgasmic, even. But after that, words fail. To know more, we must enter the realm of experience, for knowledge can come only from the event, not from its descriptors. The account of the experience is like a report relayed to the back lines from advance scouts up ahead. The description of the mountain is not the same as being one with the mountain. To know the mountain, one must go into its presence and fuse with that which it is.
(from “Unmasking the Rose,” by Dorothy Walters)
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Alchemy of the Heart : Lapiz Message from Lady Mary

LAPIZ – THE BLUE TRANSITION BETWEEN NIGREDO AND ALBEDO


The blue stage brings the first glimmer of light and the awaiting dawn into the blackness of the Nigredo of the Alchemical Journey of the Soul.

This morning, as I prepare to put down some insights and thoughts on the Lapiz stage, Divine Mary enters with a message for you, the reader.

Dearest one, listen to my words with your heart.  Be still and hear.  Close your eyes and stare deeply into the infinite silence.  Receive the gentle energies of the Sacred Heart and let the Realisations drop like pebbles into the lake of acceptance and peace.


There is no ideal human being;  there is no ideal way of being;  there is no ideal way of experiencing your human-ness, your relationships and your and other’s actions and creations.  By putting the illusion of an ideal onto yourself and onto the world around you, you are setting yourself up for failure, shame and guilt.  The inner war that rages in the breast of the human, is the war between mind and heart.  The mind has been trained to have certain expectations of how you should be, how a ‘normal’, ‘healthy’ and ‘happy’ childhood should have been, how your partner should act, how others should treat you.  All of these have been written into a code of conduct, but every one’s code is different, it changes perpetually and any attempt at adhering to a code, instead of allowing Love to guide and lead you,  leads to rigid and painful behaviour, manifesting in crippling and restrictive disease and circumstance.


At times it may appear that you have found those whom subscribe to the same code of conduct as yourself, and that it is emotionally safe to side with them and to seek shelter with them against ‘others’ or against your own feelings of pain and suffering.  And then, in the blink of an eye, betrayal takes place!  And you feel disillusionment, betrayal and abandonment and the suffering sets in.


This is because no such code exists.  The only code that is Real, is Love and Love is Unconditional, without conditions, without expectations, without withholding, without distinction, without judgement, without division.


The ideal that exists in your mind, has been created through your conditioning and your personal experiences.  This ideal can never be met and can never be fulfilled.  Therein lies much suffering.  This ideal is not meant to be met or fulfilled.  The only ideal that is Real and that can be attained by you, is the ideal of Love.  Therein lies salvation.


You are not personally responsible for the early conditioning of your life;  you are not personally responsible for the actions of the caretakers in your early life;  you are not personally responsible for the collective consciousness of the world that you were born into and neither for the Cosmic consciousness.  


Absolve yourself.  Forgive yourself.  Accept that in Love the Mystery exists.  Only in pure Awareness can the Mystery be restored.  In existence only the Golden Peace can be born. From the Infinite Ocean of Peace, the Golden One, the Son who acts and creates in peace and Love, can be born.


Today your personal responsibility lies in your choices, in your attitude and in your efforts to clear your own personal mirror from the ingrained patterns of belief and habit.  Your personal responsibility lies in accepting the Higher Power in your life and dethroning the false self from your inner kingdom.  You are responsible for the state of your inner kingdom and sacred garden;  for watering the seeds of understanding and higher consciousness, lying dormant, waiting to sprout;  for nurturing those new plants with loving thoughts, with forgiveness for yourself and others and by keeping your eyes on the Mark of Peace.


The Soul yearns for ecstasy.  The ecstasy of the highest peace which can only be attained through the freedom of guilt and the burden of shame and judgement, of self, others and the world that is seemingly created.  The painful and ‘broken’ world that you perceive, is born from your guilt and shame.  The ‘failing’ world that you perceive, is born from your judgement.  And this world, that is being created from moment to moment, hides the golden world of Peace and Love.  It obscures your Vision.  When your Vision is obscured, Wisdom does not exist.  Wisdom is born from Vision – clear and pure Vision.  As the mirror darkens, fear sets in and it seems that your belief in guilt and shame is True.  It is a never ending circle.  As you expect betrayal, you will experience betrayal and you will feel the pain of believing that you have been betrayed.


But your code of conduct and your set of rules and principles, belong to you and are created by you, by no-one else.  Control is when you are trying to force others to become a part of your code of conduct and your created world with its own rules and morals and principle.  In other words, your ideal.  Your ideal is your own and you will find many ways in which to project this ideal onto the screen of life and onto those who will fit that ideal.  But if you look carefully, you will see that no-one, divine or human, fits that set of ideals perfectly. 


Perfection means the stagnation of the Soul and the life of the Soul.  The Soul is born from the Ocean of Love, a never-ending existence of cycles, change, turbulence, tranquillity, beauty, organic life, death and growth.  


Love accepts.  Love accepts that All serves in the divine plan.  Love Knows that all that seems bad, is still good.  Love Knows that this ‘illusion’ serves you, the Golden One.  Love is humble.  Love understands that the arrogance of the mind is born from the fear that the ideal truly does not exist.  Love Knows that the divine ideal of peace and compassion, is present at all times – even when you cannot see it, because of your darkened mirror which is clouding your Vision.  


Love Knows that you are whole, that you are holy.  That despite what you judge as broken, bad, negative, hurtful and betraying, your unconscious actions are invisible to you.  Love Knows that you are blindfolded for a reason and that, as you grow into Love and you become more and more authentic as Whom You Are, your blindfold is removed, piece by piece.  Love Knows that whilst you are in the darkness, you are still as holy as when you move into the Light.  There is nowhere where God is not.  Separation does not exist, other than in your mind.  Perfection and idealism and codes of conduct, strengthens the belief of separation in your mind.  The natural response to this belief, is the belief that you are unholy, broken and sick.  The next step is that you are in ‘need’ of healing and that there is a lack of Love.  Only your mind needs healing.  The mind that excludes Love.


Earlier I said that the Soul yearns for ecstasy.  Ecstasy is found in suffering.  Ecstasy is found in pain.  Ecstasy is found in pleasure.  Ecstasy is found in joy.  There are times when the Soul finds fulfillment for its yearning for ecstasy in pain and suffering.  You cannot avoid this.  The human experience is one of duality.  You cannot Know pleasure without knowing pain.  Your habitual attempts at defending against the experience of duality and against the experience of pain, becomes your armour.  Your armour becomes your character.  Your soma reflects your character and it sculpts around your armour, like clay in a potter’s hands.  Allow the divine Potter to mould you.  Accept this Love without judgement, without fear.  When you listen to the wise stories available to you in myths and folk tale, you will see that this Wisdom is available to you, all around you.  She speaks to you wherever you look, if you open your eyes and ears.  Only Good comes from all.  There is only one consciousness Present and that is the Consciousness of Divine Love.


At times it would seem that no matter what, you are incapable of choosing loving and peaceful ways of acting.  Then it is thus.  Accept it and forgive yourself for not complying with your ideal state of being.  Your True state and being is one of Absolute Love and Compassion.  The web of that has been woven by the mind needs to be scrubbed away.  This will take time.  Set the intent.  Ask for help, Divine or mortal.  Stay in a state of acceptance and forgiveness.  Hold the tension of the opposites.  Live in the duality without resistance.  And slowly but surely, the old energy will make way for the new.  As the energy tracks in the auric field and brain changes, thus the neural pathways in the physical brain changes, the soma adjusts and remanifests and your self comes into alignment with your Golden Self.  But this is only possible when you take back the projection of the idealised Self and allow the Self to manifest and to flow through you into this world and re-create a new world. 


So, today step back from your own life.  Hand it over to my Wise Ways and allow your child to come out and play in the Sun of Love and Adoration.


Ave Maria.